"the heart which is the first to live and which dominates all the other parts of the body - should be the first and last to love God." - Brother Lawrence, The practice of the presence of God
Have you ever that day where you wanted to give up? That day where nothing seemed to go right? That day where you threw the towel in early in the morning and didn't want to face anything else?
I had one of those days recently. It really tested me and my faith. I found myself weak and in all the power and strength I could muster in my mind and in my heart, I couldn't fix the problem. I couldn't fix the situation. I couldn't lead any any differently. I couldn't change the course of any action, or cause a different effect through my education or relationships. It drove me to my knees, which is where I should have been at the start of all of this.
I had my quiet time that morning. I prayed and enjoyed my coffee time with God. I wasn't expecting what was to come next. My faith was to be shaken, stirred, overturned, mixed up, dropped in the dirt and stepped on. Satan came to attack and he brought the BIG GUNS. Where was my trust in the Lord? Where was my faith in Him? Why would I stumble so easy?
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding;
in all your ways know him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
It's all in the TRUST. Followed by "you may not understand what God is doing". I have to be okay with that. I have to TRUST in that promise! I just need to know Him, have faith in Him and let Him work IN Me and THROUGH Me. With ALL MY HEART! There is no other way!